I have been doing this group therapy the past month and things have come up that I never thought I would have to experience again. Most of the time the group meetings are good. I feel like I am encouraging the other women more then I am getting personal help. I don't know what to talk about sometimes so it is good that the other participants bring up topics. I still do not feel comfortable telling them my story of the actual incident; I do not think I will and I do not think I need to give that much disclosure.
I have discovered through this past month that to really receive what I most desire, that is to open my self up to love, it is going to be difficult. I have so many cacoons around me. Some of these cacoons I have created because of my abuse others were created by being human and living a life. I find that as I am breaking down the cacoons I choose to break out of I am finding a more sincere, beautiful person inside. Someone I have not known my whole life time. It is not like I am ever going to get the me I was back but I am formed into something more beautiful and wonderful then I could imagine to be.